2 years almost too long
I am an extreamly well known athlete in my state. and someone that each team puts a mark on every game. im an All state, All new-england athlete, all academic, all conference as freshman in high school. I was just the one to carry the team on my back my second year, soph. year. In practice a goalie came out hit me so hard, tore my acl, mcl, medial meniscus, and quad i got a pretty good concussion also. I was so pissed in main and just the memories and horror haunts me.
I had surgery took about 8 months for recovery then went to get released and inflamed something in my knee that had to be taken out. took about 2 months to recover from that. So I missed my jr. year pre-season and opening few games. i came back 1 year later and made the team gel, I mean not to sound cocky but we only lost 1 game when i was playing besides tournament we lost 1 so a total of 2. i was a key player. But before all of this went down, my first game back was away i had played the whole entire game and in the last 10 min or so i went up for a header and came down and damaged my knee. i was screaming histerically! It was just a huge bone bruise and my os said I could play through it.
So I finished out the season and it just kept getting worse, my os said to rest so I did for 3 months no change so surgery was needed. not to find out a few days later I get a major head trauma which postponed surgery 4 months. now the only option left is to redo the acl again! and go through all the rehab again! I am going to have to miss my senior year in high school, that i was suppose to be the one to carry them on my back and be the leader, and the best player on the team.
I am lost im so depresed nothing seems to be going right for me. all i want to do is to play and I cant because of my knee. I want to playy through it but the pain would get worse and worse. so I dont want to end up playing bad and messing it up for my whole team. I have only played an entire high school season my freshman year! I mean seriously all i want to do is play and everyone is like you should just give up the soccer dream and move on. but the way i keep my head on straight for everything i want to do is thtough soccer and really hard exercise. hell week is like a high for me i just cant get enough, running and playing soccer its just what I do. I played it everyday of my life and ever since ive gotten hurt its just been going down hill and now has completely come to a stand still. I'm just so lost without it, going to practices and games depress me even more.
Anyways thanks for listening any advice and comments would be great.